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Leaving You Behind

/ Nancy Ann Creed / 1 Comment

I’m tired of giving you advice,
Offering to help, but you spit in my face.
I’m tired of being your therapist,
When you don’t even want to make a change.

I’m tired of watching you make the same mistakes,
Over and over again.
I’m tired of feeling like I’m not enough,
When I’m doing the best I can.

I’m tired of being your savior,
When you don’t even want to be saved.
I’m tired of being your punching bag,
When all I want is to help you be better.

I’m tired of you taking me for granted,
Like I’m always going to be there for you.
I’m tired of you using me,
And then throwing me away when you’re done.

I’m done.
I’m done with you.
I’m done with your drama.
I’m done with your toxicity.

I’m moving on with my life,
And I’m leaving you behind.
I hope you find the help you need,
But it won’t be from me.

Fake

/ Nancy Ann Creed / 1 Comment

Oh, the friends who smile with hidden hate,
Who will stab you in the back when you least expect.
Who will laugh at your misfortunes,
And try to make you feel like a wreck.

These are the friends that you should beware,
For they are not true friends at all.
They are only pretending to be your friend,
So that they can use you to their advantage.

Once you realize that these people are not your friends,
You need to cut them out of your life.
They will only bring you pain and heartache,
And they are not worth your time or energy.

So be careful who you trust,
And don’t be fooled by the smiles of those who hate you.
True friends will love you for who you are,
And they will never try to hurt you.

So find true friends,
And let go of the ones who are only pretending.
You deserve to be surrounded by people who love and support you,
And not by those who want to see you fail.

Friend Like a Weed

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I once had a friend,
Whose love was like a weed.
It grew and grew,
And choked the life out of me.

I tried to pull it out,
But it was too strong.
It wrapped its roots around my heart,
And I couldn't breathe.

I finally had to give up,
And walk away.
It was the hardest thing I've ever done,
But it was the only way to survive.

I'm still healing,
But I'm starting to feel like myself again.
I'm learning to love myself,
And I'm finding new friends who love me for who I am.

I'm not saying it's easy,
To walk away from a toxic friend.
But it's worth it,
To save yourself.

You deserve to be happy,
And you deserve to be surrounded by people who love you.
So don't be afraid to let go,
Of the people who are holding you back.

You're worth it.

Your Thoughts

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I ask about you. 
Wonder how you are? 
I wonder where you are? 
And if you think of me? 
 
The truth hurts as I know, 
You never ask about me. 
 
For they say, 
I am never in your thoughts. 
My name is never in your mouth. 
 
I want to rage, cry and scream. 
I want to shake you and show you, 
What you lost. 
 
But chances are you won't care. 
I was never important and never a thought. 
 
All I could offer was a loyal friend 
But that was never enough for you

Drama Friends

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How do you help the ones who want no help? 
How do you help the ones who will not listen? 
Do you let them get hurt again? 
Do you help them even after they push you away? 
 
They seek friends who mean nothing to them while pushing away the ones who do. 
They stir the drama pot when things are boring. 
They go out with guys that treat them poorly. 
How do you help them when you were the one pushed away? 
 
Do you forget them and move on? 
Do you pray from the sideline? 
Or do you cry? 
for you are the one who is not wanted?