Your Birthday

In 2008, I experienced the loss of my first child through miscarriage. I never had the chance to see your face or know if you were a boy or a girl. To hold onto you, I named you Aurora. Today would have been your birthday, and you would be turning fifteen. Though we couldn’t be together here, know that my love for you has never faded. When we finally meet, you’ll receive all the hugs and love I’ve longed to give you.

Your Birthday

The calendar turns, a cruel, indifferent page,
Marking a day unseen, on life’s unfinished stage.
A day of dreams, of what could have come to be,
A tiny soul, a birthday meant for thee.
My womb, once a haven, a cradle warm and bright,
Now holds an emptiness, a silent, shadowed night.
No cooing laughter, no tiny fingers curled,
Just echoes of a future, lost within this world.
But love, like light, transcends the body’s hold,
A whispered promise, a story yet untold.
You bloomed a fleeting while, a bud unseen, yet known,
A cherished thought, a love forever sown.
The world may not have known your smile, your touch,
But in my heart, my love, you mean so much.
A silent tear may fall, a pang of what could be,
But hope still whispers, “Though unseen, you’re free.”
This day we’ll mark you, with love that will not fade,
A birthday whispered, a memory gently made.
For though you’re gone from sight, an angel in the sky,
My love for you, my child, will never, ever die.

Silent Whispers Turned to Dread

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Silent Whispers Turned to Dread

A tiny bud, a dream unseen,
Took root within, a verdant sheen.
My body bloomed, a vessel warm,
To nurture life safe from the storm.

But silent whispers turned to dread,
An empty echo where hope once tread.
The fragile bloom began to fade,
A hollow ache, a love betrayed.

Tears fall like rain on barren ground,
A symphony of sobs resound.
My arms reach out, a grasping plea,
For what I held, I cannot see.

The world moves on, a careless beat,
Oblivious to this crushing defeat.
But in my heart, a love remains,
A whispered name, etched in the rains.

Though grief may linger, sharp and cold,
A tiny seed in memory holds.
I’ll learn to dance with loss and pain,
And hope one day, love blooms again.

Birth After Miscarriage Free

I always wanted to be a mom. After my miscarriage, I thought it would never happen. But then, I realized that God had a wonderful plan for my life. I just had to wait and put my faith in Him.

Many women suffer the tremendous loss of a miscarriage. They often believe they are alone, but they are never alone. Rest assured that it is not anyone’s fault! It is simply a sad component of life. In every four pregnancies, one ends in a miscarriage.

I am sharing my story to help other women who have experienced the same pain I have. I want you to know that you are not alone. You are not to blame. And there is hope for the future. I hope that my story will give you hope and comfort. Please know that you are not alone. There is healing after miscarriage.

Birth After Misscarriage

I always wanted to be a mom. After my miscarriage, I thought it would never happen. But then, I realized that God had a wonderful plan for my life. I just had to wait and put my faith in Him.

Many women suffer the tremendous loss of a miscarriage. They often believe they are alone, but they are never alone. Rest assured that it is not anyone’s fault! It is simply a sad component of life. In every four pregnancies, one ends in a miscarriage.

I am sharing my story to help other women who have experienced the same pain I have. I want you to know that you are not alone. You are not to blame. And there is hope for the future. I hope that my story will give you hope and comfort. Please know that you are not alone. There is healing after a miscarriage.

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Birth After Miscarriage (Free Book)

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Boy or Girl

I longed to hold you.
To see your face, to kiss your feet.
To hear your laughter, to hear your cries.

I wanted you came to when life was hard
I wanted you to when life was not.

To hold you and love you,
To tell you when you were wrong.

To tell you when you're right,
To be proud of you and watch you succeed.

Taken from me so young,
Before, I knew who you were.
I longed to be your mom.

To hold you when you're sad,
To laugh with you when you're happy.

To catch you when you fall,
and lift you up to the sky
Taken from me so young,
 Your little heart,
And now it beats no more,

To hold you just to know
if you are a boy or a girl.

October is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Awareness day.   1 in every 4 pregnancies ends in a miscarriage.

During this month, I will give my book. Birth After Miscarriage: A Spiritual Journey away for free. You can download the E-book from Amazon.

FREE FROM OCTOBER 13-17

I always wanted to be a mom. After my miscarriage, I thought it would never happen. God had a wonderful plan for my life. I just have to wait and put my faith in Him. Many women suffer the tremendous loss of a miscarriage. They often believe they are alone, but they are never alone. Rest assured that it is not anyone’s fault! It is simply a sad component of life. In every four pregnancies, one ends in a miscarriage. I am sharing my story to help other women who have experienced the same pain I have.

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My Thoughts While Pregnant with Vance

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These are thoughts I had when I was pregnant with my son Vance.

 

December 14, 2010 at 4:14pm

Yesterday I felt like my water was breaking.  I called my doctor, and they told me to come to the hospital. I am 34 weeks pregnant with my second child and I had a c-section with my first one.  While at the hospital they hooked me up to monitors and saw I was having contractions. They later gave me an IV of fluids and did several tests. They decided that I had a UTI and gave me a prescription.  However, they also noticed that my baby’s heartbeat had dropped at several places. The hospital does not do ultrasounds at night so I was sent home.  My doctor has scheduled me for an ultrasound for tonight. I am worried.  Why would I have contractions? I didn’t feel them, just uncomfortable. Could the cord be bugging the baby? Could he be pulling on it or could it be around his neck? My husband thinks they would not have sent me home if there was something wrong, but I thought they just didn’t want to worry me.

A hospital that doesn’t do ultrasounds? I mean they made me wait until the next day. And I didn’t have an appointment until that night.

 

The ultrasound tech said everything was good.  Baby looked good, he is about 6 pounds, and everything was good.  He only mentioned that there was enough amniotic fluid and that it was on the high side, but I got a call from the doctor today saying that there was too much fluid.  So I am not sure what this means. She said he has too big of a swimming pool. Therefore, I am going for blood work tomorrow to test my blood sugar levels and they are sending me to fetal maternal medicine.  Therefore, I panicked again but then when they call with my appointment they say January 5! What! If it was that important why wait? Keep in mind this was December 16th. I have a regular appointment tomorrow so maybe I can learn more but I have never heard of having too much fluid.

Update:  Vance is now 7 years old. The fluid didn’t seem to be much of an issue. Vance has some behavioral issues he takes concerta for but that seems to be something that most people in his family have and nothing related to the amount of fluid postpartum.

 

I wanted to give updates in case others have the same or similar questions.

 

Baby Van part II

BABY VAN PART II
December 15, 2010 at 6:44pm
As I said last night, the ultrasound tech said that everything was good.  Baby looked good, he is about 6 pounds, and everything was good.  He only mentioned that there was enough ambiotic fluid and that it was on the high side, but I got a call from the doctor today saying that there was too much fluid.  So I am not sure what this means.  She said he has too big of a swimming pool.  Therefore, I am going for blood work tomorrow to test my blood sugar levels and they are sending me to fetal maternal medicine.  Therefore, I panic again but then when they call with my appointment they say January 5!  What!  If it was that important, why wait?  I have a regular appointment tomorrow so maybe I can learn more but I have never heard of having too much fluid.  Has this happened to anyone else?

Baby Van

Baby Van

BABY VAN

December 14, 2010 at 4:14pm
Yesterday I felt like my water was breaking.  I called my doctor and they told me to come to the hospital. I am 34 weeks pregnant with my second child and I had a c-section with my first one.  While at the hospital they hooked me up to monitors and saw that I was having contractions. they later gave me an iv of fluids and did several tests.  They decided that I had a UTI and gave me a prescription.  However they also noticed that my baby’s heart beat had dropped at several places.  Oddly enough the hospital does not do ultrasounds at night so I was sent home.  My doctor has scheduled me for an ultrasound for tonight. I am worried.  Why would I have contractions? I didn’t really feel them, just uncomfortable.  Could the cord be bugging the baby? Could he be pulling on it or could it be around his neck? My husband thinks that they would not have sent me home if there was something wrong, but I thought that they didn’t want to worry me. If they could not do an ultrasound why keep me. Any thoughts?