I feel like a failure when you won’t talk to me. Like I’ve done something wrong, or I’m not good enough. I want to reach out and touch you, But I don’t know if you want me to.
I feel like I’m drowning in silence, And I can’t breathe. I need to hear your voice, To know that you’re still there.
I know that you’re hurting, And I want to help you. But I don’t know how, If you won’t talk to me.
I feel like a failure, Because I can’t make you happy. But I’ll never give up on you, No matter how long it takes.
I’ll wait for you, Until you’re ready to talk to me again. Because I love you, And I’ll always be here for you.
I have been holding onto this news for some time but now that most know about it, I can share it. We are moving to Evansville, Indiana. I will be leaving Creative Achievement Academy this week and starting to teach at Henderson Middle School sometime in July. While I will miss all of my students and co-workers, I am really excited to start this new chapter in my life. I will be teaching special education but this time I will be a math resource room teacher and an inclusion teacher. The idea is I help the math teacher and then I go over the lesson with my students in our resource room. Of course, I am nervous but I was nervous starting at Atlantic County Special services and I was nervous starting at Creative Achievement.
When my husband and I split, we lost the house. I couldn’t afford it on my own. I know my kids were sad because they had to give up their backyard and I felt like a failure. When the kids saw the house and the backyard their faces lit up. I felt like a failure for so long because I could not give them their backyard and the popup pool they had in the past. I almost cried when we saw the house.
One of the main reasons for the move is to be closer to family but also things are so much cheaper over there then they are in NJ. My pay is comparable to what I am making now and our house is much less than this tiny apartment that I am renting.
