Friends

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My daughter is going through a lot. I think many adolescents are dealing with mental health. I wish she had better friends that support her but sadly she does not. She has been in the mental hospital twice since April. She tried to kill herself and has severe depression. We have been in and out of therapy and doctor’s appointments all summer. Now she does not want to go back to school because her so-called friends are making fun of her. It is a hard lesson to learn that some people are toxic and not good friends. I know I have had a hard time with this, and I am an adult. I just need prayers for her.

Friends

A good friend is someone who is honest
Even when it hurts, they’ll tell you the truth.
They’ll never sugarcoat things
And they’ll always be there to give you tough love.

A Good Friend

A good friend is someone who is always there
When you need them, no matter what the weather.
They’ll listen to you when you’re feeling down
And they’ll always be there to lend a hand.

A good friend is someone who will always be true
Even when it’s hard, they’ll stick by you.
They’ll celebrate your successes
And they’ll be there to comfort you in your failures.

A Good Friend Is Not

A good friend is not someone who is always there
When it’s convenient for them.
They’re not someone who will only be your friend
When things are going well for you.

A good friend is not someone who will lie to you
Or betray your trust.
They’re not someone who will only be your friend
When they need something from you.

A good friend is someone who is there for you
Through thick and thin.
They’re someone who will always be there for you
No matter what.

So if you’re lucky enough to have a good friend
Treasure them.
They’re a rare and precious gift.

Angry

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Angry
I saw the way they looked at her,
I heard the things they said.

My blood boiled, my heart raced,
I wanted to scream and shout and rage.

But I knew that wouldn’t help,
So I took a deep breath and held it in.

I walked over to my daughter,
I put my arm around her and said,

“Don’t listen to them, honey.
They’re just mean.

They don’t know what they’re talking about.
You’re beautiful, inside and out.”

Stand Back and Do Nothing

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When they laugh at you, and no one does anything about it. 
When they attack you, and your so-called friends stand back and do nothing.

How can they call this person a friend? How can they be okay with the things they do?
Stand back and do nothing, call this person a friend and lie to your face.


That is when you know that they are not real friends. 

You don’t say anything, for nothing good will come of it.
You don’t retaliate, for then you will be just like them. 
You try to turn the other cheek, but they hit that one too.
You want to be better than them, but your thoughts deceive you.

You try to say it doesn’t bother you, but deep down you know it does. 
It tears away at your confidence, your trust, your friendships.

And still, they say nothing.

Scream and Yell

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Some might say I’m mean.
Some might say I’m loud.
People will say anything to hurt you.
They will make you question who you are,
And what you stand for.
They say you’re the mean one.
You might be loud and yell.
You might scream and curse,
But sometimes you need to.
You need to yell, scream, fight!
You need to be loud!
They may think you are being mean, but who cares!
When people are bullied, tormented, and wronged.
You have to stand up!
You have to give them a voice when they have none.
You have to yell, scream, and fight!
You have to stand up!
You have to give them a voice when they have none.

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One Night

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One night, two people.
Calling me names, blasting me to others.

Some say it doesn’t matter.
I should forget it and move on.
It’s their loss and blah blah blah...

Bullshit!

Why does it hurt so badly if all these other people say it shouldn’t.
Why am I the target? Am I weak?
Why is it so hard to walk away? Why do I want to keep talking?

And why do I get so angry? Why am I so hurt?

Keeping Quiet

I'm the vocal one. 
I'm the friend who tells you all. 
when I am sad, angry, and mad. 
I'm the one who speaks out because I kept quiet for so long. 

I'm the vocal one. 
I'm the friend who calls you to give you exciting news. 
I'm the friend who worries, frets and paces 
The one who hates when people are upset,
 but worst of all, I hate when the hate is directed at me. 

I'm the vocal one. 
It's a curse. 
I tell you how I feel, no matter what. 
I fear it's only a matter of time before you leave. 
For with these friends, I always fear 
When the time will come, when I know the truth. Broken, tossed aside so many times, waiting to be tossed again. 
 
Standing on the edge of a cliff waiting for that final push. Losing any real friends, as I fear the ones who are not and the ones I can't see.

My Voice Never Made a Sound

This poem was written for all those who were made fun of and the bystanders stood by and watched. I am also guilty of this. I wish I could find him to say I am sorry for not acting. 

I stood by and watched 
And I didn't say anything 
And  sometimes I looked away 
 
My lips never moving 
My voice never making a sound 
In protest to your plight 
 
I never stood up and never spoke out 
I sat at my desk and watched and listened 
But never spoke out in your defense 
 
My heart hurt of the things they did 
My heart ached and I saw how they made you 
But too afraid to move 
 
So many people hurt and none of us could move 
We let them decide who we were 
And let them decide what we do 
 
Vile, heart retching acts and still, I did nothing 
We just followed the crowd 
And now all we have is regret. 
 
Where are you now?  
Will you forgive those who hurt you 
And those who just stood by 
Will you forgive me?